hot, Hot, HOT!!

OK, so I notice on Facebook the majority of the status' are of this heat wave we are going through. Well I don't blame people! It was 45C after all today. It is one of those times where I am incredibly glad that I work in an air conditioned office.

I don't know how I am going to get to sleep tonight. I have a feeling I'll be going back to the bathroom to grab a cold facewasher and keep that by my bedside. And have the fan going all night...again.

The receptionist at work had been doing better the last couple days but today, without Nick (our boss) around, she just didn't seem as productive. Maybe it's the weather, maybe it's because Nick was back in Perth she just didn't prioritize and get stuff done. So when 5.20pm rolled around there was a mad rush to get all the mail ready to be posted out. We'll see how she goes for the rest of the week and when Nick gets back next Thursday I'm pretty sure he'll want a decision.

But until then I have other things to think about - like our Perth office. Internet has been down now for 5 working days and we are having to pick up some of the slack. But one person I am really worried about is my manager. She is really struggling and doesn't know how much more she can take. Her son (late 30's) has had cancer now for 3 years and he has to undergo a new lot of treatment. Her husband is undergoing surgery tomorrow for his third kidney stone. and her daughter (40, I think) has to put up with a husband who doesn't understand what it means to be a father to his two little boys (18 months & 4 months) because he still wants to go out in this heat! It just frustrates me when people don't stop to think of others like this - especially two gorgeous little boys!!

I think that's enough for tonight. The laptop is really making my legs all sweaty, I need to turn it off.

Addictions, demons, and angry clients

I am addicted to Facebook. I admit that. I cannot start my day without logging on and know what has happened while I slept and I cannot help but log on just before I go to bed. I don't think it is a bad addiction. If I don't have internet for a couple days I don't feel the withdrawal until I get online and think of what I may have missed in the last couple days.

We all have our own personal demons that we face on a daily basis. Whether or not we choose to recognise them and deal with them is up to each individual. I go through so many emotions each and every day that I often ignore my demons and they tend to go away. But it is when I dwell on my demons that they really begin to take over and steer my thoughts in the wrong direction.

What doesn't really help the situation is when, at 4.45pm a client rings up and virtually abuses me about something I had spoken to her about just a few days earlier. And yes, we did make a mistake, but that is no reason to yell at me! While yes, it was so close to the end of the day, it put me in a sour mood.

I guess we all go through things that aren't easy, but whether or not we let them get to us and become our demon is what makes us who we are.

Decisions, decisions

So here I am, exhausted after a beautiful hot Australia day spent relaxing with friends and I can't help but reminisce and ponder how I got to this point. And yet my thoughts are hampered somewhat by the annoying throb of a headache I can't seem to throw. I feel sleep deprived yet I don't seem to want to sleep. I feel like something is wrong yet I don't want to search deeper afraid of what I might find.

I have a big decision that I need to make at work, and it reminds me of how young I am and how lucky I am in my career so far. I have excelled in my work and my boss is very happy with my performance and wants to keep challenging and pushing me to do more - I know this, he told me on Friday - but he feels that I do not have the proper assistance I need to advance in the current receptionist. So I need to decide whether or not the current receptionist really is suitable for the job. My gut feeling from her performance in the past month is that she is not quite up to it, but I feel so bad saying it. I will talk it over with my manager when she gets back into the office on Wednesday but I believe that we'll need to find another receptionist - it will be our 4th since February last year.

Now I address another issue... for some reason in the past week I find that I am depriving myself of sleep. I am not sure why. I go to bed, tired after a long day, yet I procrastinate, not wanting to go to sleep, wanting to tire myself out. I am doing it again tonight by writing this blog. But I'll make the decision now, I must turn out my light, ready for a busy day of work in the morning.

I just hope I follow through.