Decisions, decisions

So here I am, exhausted after a beautiful hot Australia day spent relaxing with friends and I can't help but reminisce and ponder how I got to this point. And yet my thoughts are hampered somewhat by the annoying throb of a headache I can't seem to throw. I feel sleep deprived yet I don't seem to want to sleep. I feel like something is wrong yet I don't want to search deeper afraid of what I might find.

I have a big decision that I need to make at work, and it reminds me of how young I am and how lucky I am in my career so far. I have excelled in my work and my boss is very happy with my performance and wants to keep challenging and pushing me to do more - I know this, he told me on Friday - but he feels that I do not have the proper assistance I need to advance in the current receptionist. So I need to decide whether or not the current receptionist really is suitable for the job. My gut feeling from her performance in the past month is that she is not quite up to it, but I feel so bad saying it. I will talk it over with my manager when she gets back into the office on Wednesday but I believe that we'll need to find another receptionist - it will be our 4th since February last year.

Now I address another issue... for some reason in the past week I find that I am depriving myself of sleep. I am not sure why. I go to bed, tired after a long day, yet I procrastinate, not wanting to go to sleep, wanting to tire myself out. I am doing it again tonight by writing this blog. But I'll make the decision now, I must turn out my light, ready for a busy day of work in the morning.

I just hope I follow through.